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I’m feeling more well-adjusted now & the cuts r healing & i hope to deal with my depression in a better way next time. Anyway here r some pics from Diageo’s Xmas party last fri!

We had quite a good time there since everyone was there to party & we were there soaking up the atmosphere @ Marina Barrage as well. Christine was practising how to look like a ghost in the second pic, & i was learning a special technique of pouring Guinness in the last pic. Lin (the person in charge of the Guardian Angel campaign) was teaching me how to do so & i must say he’s damn charming. Too bad the photo doesn’t show his face but he’s really got the charisma of a mature man Oh & Guinness doesn’t taste half-bad at all.

Then it was work again on Sat. A HTC event. We were handing out fliers to ppl along Orchard Rd & demonstrating the phone to anyone who was interested. But i made the blunder of handing the flyer to the HTC client herself cuz i didn’t recognise her from the casting. She took the flier from me & she was like ‘Amanda rite?’ so i actually said ‘U look familiar…’ OMG. That was seriously a super bimbotic moment. I swear i need to get a brain transplant cuz i’m so terrible @ recognising faces & names nowadays When the event was over i took a bus home & i felt ridiculous with my ‘SQ girl’ hair. I wonder how the SQ girls put up with the hard hair & tons of hairspray they must use each time.

Ta-dah. I hate the hair seriously.

Taken during the casting. I think a ponytail would look nice enough instead of the ‘SQ bun’.

Sometime during the week i went to this new eatery @ Wisma. The place is called ‘Whisk’ & i’m guessing the person who owns it is a cat-lover. The menu had a description of cats blah blah blah & its logo is that of a cat. ‘Whisk’ is short for whiskers i guess. But it was a pleasant place overall. Not fantastic or anything or not too bad either.

Xmas & New year creeps up on us again. But i’m in no festive mood. All i wish for – the economy to get better, my family to be happy, & peace of mind for myself.

I’ve been feeling very strained lately -  i feel like a rubber band that’s pulled so tight it’s gonna snap & break any moment. There has been alot of disappointments recently & i just feel very tired emotionally & physically, especially after crying. I’ve gone back to inflicting physical pain on myself so that somehow i can be distracted from my emotional worries. *sigh* I thought i’d kicked that habit long ago when i erased that certain someone from my mind but apparently things have happened to trigger this habit again. I’m not well I know. I have alot of baggage and i’m emotionally fragile so really, stop hurting me already. Whether it’s deliberate or not, whether ur genuinely sorry abt the mistakes u’ve made – it doesn’t matter cuz the damage is done. I cannot afford any more room for ur ‘mistakes’.

Sorry to everyone who has to read this – i just really need to vent my frustrations & there’s no better place than here on my blog.

Anyway probably everyone i knew bombed at the quiz we had on Mon. The first thing i said to Tuesday when i came out of the lecture hall was ‘I think we all underestimated this quiz’. That was bcuz we were told it was gonna be ‘very easy’ (I quote my lecturer on this) & bcuz the lecturers would usually be lenient since this was an intensive 2 week module and we can’t possibly cram all that knowledge when we also had to do a ppt presentation + a grp essay during this short span of time. I actually studied for the quiz & i found it tough so i can imagine what it was like for the ppl who didn’t really study. So to get our distinctions, the only hope now is to score damn well for the remaining grp essay. *cross fingers*

We had to use 2B pencils for the MCQ part of the quiz & the only ones i could find were these old-sch types. Even my sharpener is so ‘vintage’! Wahaha.

I even went for a somewhat ‘prep’ look for school that day:

Polo Tee + Hairband

Will be working for Sitex from Thurs to Sun & i’m not looking forward to it cuz it’ll be crowded, busy & tiring. Plus i gotta finish my essay but where got time seriously? Sitex is from 11am-9pm and by the time i reach home i’ll be exhausted. I’ve to do the anti-drinkdriving roving on Fri nite after Sitex as well…. But $$ is impt – especially since ‘recession’ is very much on my mind recently so i think we shd just earn what we can even if certain jobs may not pay as well as they used to In fact i didn’t even buy anything when i went shopping with my sis today except for a new makeup pouch. Next yr’s new yr resolution No. 1 – Must cut down on unnecessary expenses/Must save $$$.

Look out for more New yr resolutions….

Was busy with the ppt presentation the past wk – I watched Jack Neo’s ‘Money No Enough 1′ as part of our project work as we’ve chosen Jack Neo films as our contemporary culture text. FYI: ‘text’ is just the term to mean ‘subject’ in pop culture context. Anyway watching his films for analysis is just part of what we had to do for our presentation & thank goodness we got to choose our own topic. Imagine if we got assigned to boring topics such as anime or bollywood! Wa lao. No offense but those topics r not my cup of tea

Had my usual anti drink-driving roving on Fri nite, we ended early as the timing was pushed forward but nonetheless i was super tired on Sat morning when i had to wake up at 7am to get to class at 9am. We had to draw lots for our presentation timeslot & since Sam had to work halfday on Sat, we could only get the afternoon slots and it was pretty lucky for us that we drew the 2pm slot. Everyone wanted to get the am slots since they could just leave after their presentation but for us we had to wait for Sam to arrive so by the time we ended it was abt 2.30pm. Ok la, better than staying all the way til 5pm. Oh  we scored a High D for the presentation!!! Yippee!!! Thanks for the great work project peeps! Next up let’s work hard for our essay as well!!!

I dropped by my cuz’s place in the middle of the week to get something from her & i was really happy to see my nieces. Amber is still SOOOooooo kawaii~ from the mmses my cuz sends us i always thought she was quite big alr….haha but she’s not – she’s still a tiny tot & she can’t even really crawl very well & she’s abit shy ard unfamiliar ppl. She starts crying if her mom or gran is outasite, & i’m like ‘oh no! what do i do?!’ haha.

She’s wearing the striped romper i bought her when she was abt 1 or 2 mths old.  Obviously she outgrew it by now but she wears it as a top now

Charlize’s the older girl & she’s getting a little better with ppl cuz she used to be quite aloof & a lil’ rude. *oops* She was visibly perky that day probably cuz i bribed her with a whole pack of Lindt chocs. Kids. So easily contented. How i wish i could be like that.

Something else happened someday during the week & i dun wish to elaborate here but it was something that really upsetted me (haha i know there’s no such word as upsetted but i like to use it anyway). It’s been a long time since i last felt so upset that i just cried and stopped, cried & stopped & i didn’t even eat anything the whole day afterwards. My eyes were damn puffy when i went to sch the next day & I got Dusk to take over my presentation part since i was only doing a short introduction anyway. Thk goodness for him cuz he was like, ‘i can tell from ur eyes lor so i also cannot bear to ask u to do the presentation.’ Anyway am feeling much better now.

Gotta mug for my quiz tmr now…more updates next time!

*i’m all outta faith, this is how i feel…*

As expected i couldn’t wake up in time for class the next morning. To reach sch on time @ 9am, that would mean i’d have to leave my place @ 7.30am, which would mean i have to wake up to get ready @ 6.30am . I did manage to arrive for the 2nd half of class but seriously i dun think i would have missed anything impt cuz the lecturer was just reading off the ppt slides. Duh. I wouldn’t have bothered showing up for class if not for the fact that we needed to have a discussion on the grp project.

As i’ve mentioned i’ve some new grp members this time round & they’re really interesting ppl. Huifang was someone i’ve noticed since the start of sch last yr cuz she’s very vocal & sounds very smart & dynamic so i’m pretty happy to have her in my grp. She’s a really funny character too…cuz she admonishes us for all the little things that r ‘wrong’ to her like smoking (NOT me cuz i dun smoke), but she did chatise me for my lack of trust & faith in men & relationships. She was like ‘u gotta have trust what!’. Ya right. Trust. That’s like asking me to believe i’m gonna strike Toto next week. *rolls eyes* No offense, i admire Huifang’s positivity but i’m just very pessimistic by nature.

Next week might be a pretty busy one. We gotta start doing a powerpoint presentation & everything must be ready by sat. Then we have to study for an individual quiz on the following monday. *pengz*

The lessons itself are pretty interesting, & i have a new project grp this module since we’ve been split into 2 diff tutorial grps & Tuesday, Yanling + Ali r in the other tutorial grp. I kinda like my new grp members compared to the other grp i had for the last intensive module. No offense, but i think my new project folks r more driven, vocal & smart so it definitely seems promising! Gonna miss class today though, due to the anti drink-driving campaign being pushed to an earlier timeslot tonight. And there’s class for the whole of tmr as well. *Sigh*

I know i dun sound very enthusiastic abt sch & my life in general and that’s right. I’m NOT. I’m trying to find passion & enthusiasiusm in my life & i hope to share everything with someone but i haven’t been very successful. My spirit, my fire, my optimism, my happiness has been dampened so many times & each time my hopes r raised only to result in MORE disappointment.

To digress, here r pics taken during last wk’s anti-drinkdriving nite out:

Not a very gd pic but this is the cap we’re giving away for this campaign. Mind u, our objective is not to just simply hand out free merchandise – we seriously want to spread the word that ‘If u drink dun drive’!

I took this pic after realising that Shino & i were wearing VERY similar tanktops! Haha he looks damn gay la

Everything went pretty much smoothly last wk. The only thing i disliked was going into the bars cuz the music is really too loud indoors which makes it very difficult for us to communicate with the patrons inside the bars. Plus i got groped cuz the place was really crowded. I felt someone grab my butt and it was definitely on purpose cuz the hand also made a squeeze, if u get what i mean. What to do? The place is so packed & when u turned around u can only see all the ppl crowding together so u can’t catch the culprit anyway.

Hope it’s gonna be a great night later on…then i’m gonna go home early & go for class @ 9am on a Saturday

We had the media launch yesterday @ the client’s office & everyone had a great time. I’m especially impressed by the fact that the employees themselves r so keen in championing this cause against drink-driving. For the uninitiated, this campaign was started by Diageo, the world’s largest alcohol company. Johnnie Walker, Baileys, Smirnoff & Guiness r just some of the brands under their belt & while some ppl may find it a surprise that an alcohol company would spend $$ organising such a campaign, Diageo simply wants ppl to consume their prdts in a responsible manner.

This year’s campaign is a joint effort with MTV & our ambassador this year is the lovely Denise Keller! Got to meet her yesterday but didn’t get to talk to her much cuz we were all busy doing our own thing. Managed to grab a photo with her though:

Here r a few more photos from the launch yesterday…apologies for the blurry pics cuz i forgot to bring my camera & we all know that handphone camera+shaky hands= sucky photos

 This is Patience & yours truly.

 Acting cute in our ‘angelic’ outfits!

 camwhoring moment

  The view from Diageo’s office is just beautiful, & this is only the 13th floor! Bet the view will be even more fantastic from a higher level.

Last but not least, us angels just having a lil’ fun after the launch. Snapped this pic of Gary as he was changing…& he just started prancing & dancing around for us haha…he’s so NOT camera-shy man. Goes to show that we’re not all preachy & out to lecture ppl with our anti drink-driving speeches, cuz we’re fun-loving peeps too! We just want others to enjoy themselves responsibly!

For more info, log on to www.guardianangelasia.com in abt a week’s time when the webby is ready. U can even pledge urself & be ur own angel to support this campaign

I was waiting behind this elderly malay ‘macik’ for a cab when this stupid lady appeared in front of us and started pretending to be engrossed in her phone conversation whilst she flagged for a cab. She simply pretended to be so engrossed in talking that she did not see me or the macik who’s been waiting for a cab for quite a while under the hot afternoon sun. I was damn pissed off that i shouted at her ‘wa lao! ch*b*i cut queue!’ & for a moment i could tell i startled her as she got her fat arse into the cab. It’s bad enough that she cut my queue, but at least she shd have given consideration to the macik who has been waiting for quite long. But obviously such ppl lack consideration for others cuz they’re plain rude & selfish. Morons.

Anyway on to my daily updates. Had a job briefing on Wed for this year’s anti-drink driving campaign & it was like a reunion of sorts. Almost everyone who did the last campaign were present – Gary, Shino, Ian & Patience & i’m so happy that we’ll all be working together again! If anyone can recall, we were a bunch of ‘angels’ who went around different nightspots spreading the msg that ‘if u drink, dun drive.’ The wings this yr would be smaller, which is a gd thing for us, since i kept bumping into things with my wings the last time haha. Didn’t really like the dress though, cuz it’s shapeless & the belt they provided just looked abit ‘off’ with the dress. But at the end of the day what matters most is to spread the word abt responsible drinking. Not to sound preachy or ‘elitist’ here, but i really am TOTALLY against drink driving & drink-drivers are another kind of ppl that i abhor cuz if u dun treasure ur life, at least pay heed to other ppl who want to live their lives.

Then it was a movie on Thurs. Went to catch ‘Tropic Thunder’ & it was pretty farnee. Lame but farnee I like The fake trailers they made in the show were hilarious & Tom Cruise’s cameo was great. I didn’t recognise him until halfway thru & i think he was fantastic even though he was fat & hairy & he had really bad dance moves Also managed to satisfy my craving for Thai Express & Crystal Jade porride on the same day too! *YUM* Now i feel like eating prawn noodles from Geylang…

Only one more week to go & its back to sch…ugh! Can i dun go???

Spent almost the whole of yesterday in bed sleeping off the flu bug. My throat was already acting up on Sat but the flu only started when i woke up on Sun. The first thought that came to my mind was ‘sh*t.can’t go jogging again…’ cuz i’ve been getting lazy & i really want to kickstart my usual jogging routine before i get too comfortable & stop exercising altogether. Arghhhh…..fats can’t wait!

Had a shoot on Fri for a certain magazine. Shall not disclose all the details til later. I felt a little intimidated at first cuz all the other models i saw were ‘ang-mohs’ but i soon got over my apprehensions as the stylist and makeup artist were real friendly ppl. I really love what they did to my hair!

 The curls rock! So different from my straight hair but it’s a hassle to use the curling tong if i want to create this hairstyle. I’m too lazy

The shoot went smoothly & thus finished earlier than i had anticipated so i was able to meet my sis for a shopping spree afterwards. Felt like super long ago since i went shopping as well as hung out with my sis & it was a ‘fruitful’ trip haha…if u get what i mean.

Was supposed to meet Mr. X for a movie on thurs but he cancelled on me cuz he came down w a cold+mild fever. I was super disappointed cuz i was almost all ready to leave my place & then it was all for nothing. I called dusk to complain…actually it was more like to scream at him cuz i couldn’t scream at someone who was sick so i could only vent my disappointment & frustration at someone else. Poor dusk. But i’m really appreciative that he always listens to my crap & for pointing out the error of my ways when i overthink things & become irrational. Anyway i went out on my own later cuz i had an appt @ Pink Parlor then i went shopping which successfully detracted me from my earlier unhappiness.

Met up with Liping on Wednesday for dinner when she finished work. Poor girl. She’s always so busy with work now that i rarely get to see her! We had Pizza Hut and then we went to walk around Tampines Mall…it’s surprising how we girls can still find things to buy when we’re just ‘walking around’ haha As usual she likes to bug me abt my ‘status’ with Mr. X but my answer remains the same because i’m still not ready to commit myself YET cuz i have alot of issues & baggage & i dun wish to complicate things by jumping the gun.

Last but not least, my hamsters had babies again! My mom is like a ‘breeder’ for hamsters now cuz they just keep reproducing every 3 weeks or so…after which we pass them on to my uncle who sells them @ his aquarium shop, but only after they grow bigger first.

 This is just how tiny they are….soooooo cute right?!

 Anybody who’s interested in buying these hamsters can drop me a msg, cuz my uncle sells them much cheaper than Pet Safari (they sell @ $20). Only animal lovers pls! Cuz i know of some ppl who rear snakes & buy the hamsters as food for the reptiles & i do not want that happening to my babies!